Back at Weight Watchers...

I rejoined ww last Saturday and attended my regular "new" meeting today 2.6 lighter. I was definately surprised, considering that I have not logged my food. That said, I know that I have been much more accountable to myself for eating whatever, and I guess that's why I go. I hope to kick it up a notch now that I have the Marathon thing going on.

I received my official packet yesterday and, after talking to the director, I feel VERY confident that I will have a number before January. Alot of people commit and then re-consider before the kick off. Some get injured, not that I wish anyone ill, I just know the realities and see that I am going to make the team. I am going to set up my fundraising site with TnT tonight and hopefully get some letters out soon. The minimum is $2500 - which I hope to get out of the way as fast as possible. I want to get focused on training.

Today's spin was AWESOME. My favorite teacher subbed for a not so favorite. It was a nice, butt kicking surprise!

I think I'm losing it sometimes...

Yesterday I went to have the dreaded toe taken care of and .... my appointment isn't until next week. Lovely... Obsessing is NOT a good thing. As for my lack of workout motivation, I've decided not to put off what I can start NOW. I have mapped out the Galloway training program - 29 weeks til Boston. On the schedule for today is 45 min run (at my current pace about a 5K). My kids are still not 100%, but if I stay in this house one day longer, I'm not going to be 50%!!

DD1 has no school - parent/teacher conferences, so I'll be able to hit the gym when most of the anal mother crowd has left, and there aren't so many other kids to infect... I'll get my run in on the tread and hopefully a quick upper body/ab routine.

The rest of the week looks like this:

Thursday - Cross train - Spin class
Friday - 45 min run
Saturday - is supposed to be a "walk day", but since I am still biking with my neighbor I'll probably put in about 15-20 miles. Last week's ride was a little nippy for me, so I know it won't be long before the bike is tucked in for it's long winter nap.
Sunday - 6 miles LSD. I am going to do 2 - 3 mile loops around town. I know the distance and the course has some good hills in it.

November 5th is the big Team in Training kick off event. I hope to have a good leg up.

Happy Wednesday!

I'm in????????

This is the e-mail I received yesterday...

"You are currently one of the 15 people on our waitlist. I will be sendingout a more formal email to everyone on the waitlist this morning. Butpretty much, as an alternate you can still fundraise and train with theteam, you just don't have an official number yet. The past 2 years, all 15alternates did receive a number, so the chances of you getting one arepretty high. There is just no guarantee. "

Am I in, Am I not? ---- I am going to go for it and hope that I am in... I figure I am first and foremost interested in the "group training" and coaching. The Boston Marathon is the icing - and although it is THE MARATHON, it's not the only game in town. AND If I want, I can always run the scum line.... (the lovely term for unofficial runners).

More on Team in Training later....

Silence....

I was supposed to hear about Boston on Friday, but nothing but silence. I am thinking its n0t good, and that I need to get my workout schedule t0gether on my own. I've had a week off from the gym (took a 13 mile bike ride Saturday am) and I feel RESTED and READY... Oh, except that I am getting my toe cauterized tomorrow, so I'll need a few more days to recup.

I rejoined ww Saturday. I had a horrible eatting weekend... Drank wine, ate candy... The good news is that I am not starting ww back at square one. The bad news is that I am great need of a kick in the ass! Hoping that a few new recipes, a new food journal and a renewed sense of urgency will help me along.

I am still hopeful about Boston, we'll see.

Taking Stock...

I am almost through my week, and it has been jam-packed. We have replaced the windows in the kitchen, fixed the car, bought tires, started the process to cure an ingrown toenail. The kids have made it to and from school and all that's left is a trip to the nursing home to visit Gram and a promised dinner at McDs for the kids since the house is still in disarray.

Oh so exciting... Biggest loser made me SCREAM.... Has Chris Farley returned from the dead or what???? You all know who I am talking about and BOY is he a loser (and not in the big sense). The girls, who I fear are horribly disadvantaged, definately voted out the right person. All in vain, I am afraid, since the men will win again. The men will always win. It's scientificly proven that men and women lose weight at different rates - men faster... What's the problem with NBC???

I am going to join ww tomorrow to take advantage of the no reg fee deal. Today just wasn't happening for me... Time was short!

I'll pick this up tomorrow!

Getting with it...

I don't know if there's actually something going on, BUT lately I've noticed that the bloggers I read are going through some struggles with motivation. I did this last fall and I don't want to do it again. Fall off the wagon, gain a few pounds, eat through Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas. I DON"T want to start fresh with the New Year. I want to have something to be proud of for this year. SO, that said, I have to reign it in and get back on track. Finding out about the marathon will be one thing, but I also - probably more important - have to stop eating! so much... I am not even hungry. I recognize patterns, I see what I am doing. It's like an out of body experience. Me watching me eating like a pig! No control, no thought... Stress - its definately there, but it's not like it ever wasn't.

What will I do?????
1. Obviously quitting ww was NOT the answer. I am re-joining (for the 1 millionth time) tomorrow, while there is still free registration.
2. After toe surgery and home repair I will get back to the gym with a WRITTEN workout schedule.
3. I will journal every bite of food - starting from this very minute.
4. I will try to live the moment, walk the walk, not try and cheat myself.

I will NOT ever quit.

Done.

I am finished with the entertaining for the MONTH. I bought the yuckiest halloween candy I could find. I am not tempted in the least to sample. The remains of the birthday cake was trashed. Of course I celebrated last night with a trip to Bollywood - a new upscale indian place. It was YUMMY. I did not choose carefully, but I did not drink. Actually I have decided that I will forgo the wine again like I did this summer. I have fallen off the good eating wagon, and I need to get back on fast before I am back at square one. This week I need to focus on ME. I need to get back to basics; write in my food journal- sign up for spin classes - ride my bike before the cold gets too much for me... Yes - I am a wimp!

I will find out in 2 weeks if I am on the TnT Marathon team.

I am feeling hopeful. I am feeling determined. I am feeling a little desparate. But I will get things done.

Too many parties...

I am NOT an entertainer. I don't like to organize events, I don't enjoy the pressure of who to invite, what to serve. I have been stressed for the last two weeks about 2 parties and I really should just get a life... My kids are now 3 and 6. The three year old had her party last weekend. Just the neighborhood kids, she felt special, all went well, and I hated every minute of it. When would it be over!!?? Tomorrow is my 6 year olds party. Its after school, 1.5 hours and I can not wait to have a glass of wine at 6 pm. I HATE - yes HATE the pressure that society, my town, my crazy mind places on kids b-days. What's the theme? Where is it? Is she going to hate me because I didn't want to spend 200 dollars at the gymnastics center or the local craft store painting pottery? Will she be judged because she didn't invite the whole class? Eight kids, 90 minutes, pin the tail, cake, ice cream and presents. DONE.

I can't think about my diet (not good) or my exercise (barely passable) until I am over this silly Friday afternoon. I am really crazy.

Cake...

My girls' birthdays are here and I have eaten cake. Stress - cake - stress... I am not a good organizer. I do not enjoy throwing a party. So I stepped up and did my motherly duty, had party number 1 and ate cake. And then I thought about party number 2 on Friday and ate more cake... I did exercise as I set out to do in my weekly goals. I made it to spin twice, biked a cool 25 and ran a 5k race yesterday. This week I WILL LOG MY FOOD! I have to get the eating thing under control. I need to go to Heathers site and catch that article about emotional eating... I need to get it together.