Wet Wednesday

A mid-week day off. I needed one - and it's pouring out, so yet another excuse to stay home and catch up on the housework. I am going to do some core work tonight when I watch TV, but nothing too strenuous. Tomorrow is weigh in day, so I am NOT going to over eat either and that is for sure.

I am switching from Core to Flex on ww. I thought that I should do Core because of marathon training, and now that I've been not losing any weight for a few months I've decided that portions are more my problem than the kinds of food I put in my mouth. Calories in versus calories out. It should be that simple. What I need to focus on is writing things down, adding things up and being accountable at the end of the week. If I do this, IF I CAN JUST DO THIS, and continue to gear up for the marathon, there is no scientific way I can maintain my present weight. Truly my body likes 185-195; it has been in this range for the last 10 years or so ever since I quit smoking and gained a quick 20lbs. Through 2 babies, through exercise programs and years of no exercise program, my body has stayed right here. I join WW, lose 5-10 lbs and I stop. I stop doing something, because I stop losing any real weight. I just manage to lose and regain the same 5 lbs with out cracking that 185 plateau.

Obviously something has to give. I am taking a stand NOW. I really can't see myself running a marathon at my weight. I don't want to be someone else's inspiration (if that fat girl can do it....) I just want to blend in and be just another runner.

If my 4oth is a memorable birthday, I don't want to remember it as another FAT birthday. I want to be fabulous; I want it to be the start of the new and improved ME... I have a lot of work to do, but I see so many people who have done it - and there is nothing super human about them. They just decided one day that enough was enough.