What made it CLICK for you?

I know when I journal my food, I am successful at losing or at least maintaining my weight. I ate alot yesterday... I started my period this morning, so I know why I couldn't satisfy myself. I wrote it all down. Today is a new day.

I think that I have pretty much convinced myself that I am running Boston again next year. Of course, its November that it all starts, and not really next year... just six months away. I just have to lose some weight. It's got to start moving in the downward direction. I honestly don't think that my body could take that training again with all this extra poundage. Will it motivate me? Can anything motivate me? What is it that CLICKs when people, who have been overweight for most of their lives start losing? It isn't a major life event for many of them, and it usually isn't anything they are doing differently (other than actually following whatever program they've signed onto). The woman in my WW group who just reached her goal, had joined an uncountable number of times in the past. What got her to goal? -- "I just decided to do it this time." (But all the other times you decided you were going to fail??? Come on!)

I keep telling myself that if I keep doing what I am doing for long enough, eventually it will CLICK. I keep telling myself that it's about making healthy eating/portion control/exercise a habbit. It has been a long time... I've taken very few breaks... It's not CLICKING.... yet. Fortunately, I am not done trying....