Craving...

I wish my desire to be thinner would out weigh my cravings for a lobster roll and potato chips. Could I be satisfied with a small? Not at 6 p.m. with 2 screaming kids and a desire to eat anything and everything. I settled on a medium. I ate one half.... and then an hour later, ate the other.... I logged it in SparkPeople. It put me into next monday's calorie allotment...

I have a graduation party this afternoon, followed by the bridal shower tonight. I am stressed about who will walk my dog - my kids are off with Grandma. I always need something to worry about. On top of it all, it is raining AGAIN. I can not tell you how it sucks the life right out of me. I've been thinking about the fact that I have been up since 5 a.m. - it's 8:15 and I've done nothing but drink coffee. I even gave the kids granola bars and bananas - there's your breakfast... What the heck is up with me?! It's warm enough outside - I could be riding my bike. I could have driven out to my sister's to work out... I could have just run with the dog.... I know it is my time of the month, but I really hate to use that as an excuse... I should be better prepared. It's not like it's some big surprise that my hormones are all out of whack.... I shouldn't let it consume me and ruin my diet on top of it, every single month!