Monday, September 25, 2006

Another Monday Morning...

I am NOT at the gym, and I am obviously procrastinating about cleaning the house. We're buying my mom's car to replace our deceased beater. She is buying a new car and it's supposed to happen sometime today. I am supposed to wait for the call to bring her to the dealership. She's a little stressed - the whole money thing... she gets me stressed. I just want to have the whole car thing resolved... NOW.

I went to a wedding yesterday. I drink too much wine. I didn't over eat, but I wasn't on program either. I had cake. I had a chocolate strawberry. I had 2 pieces of pizza at dinner. I wrote it all down and that is at least half of my battle.

I need a goal and DietGirl has put a bug in my ear. Christmas is 13 weeks away... That's a week longer than a Body for Life cycle. I can do this.... 13 weeks. .... My WW this past week I stayed exactly the same, though I was expecting a loss:( I hope yesterday's fiasco doesn't wreck my chances for a loss this week). I will get to the gym tomorrow, and Wednesday and Thursday and Friday... I will make time for it to happen.

The only other issue I have on my plate is a B-day party for my soon to be 4 year old. Neighborhood kids, cake and a Pinata. That should cover it... Next week's party for my 7 year old will not be as easy:( The girl things start TOO soon.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Weight Watchers, PT, and general BS

I can't tell you that I was "OP" all week. I can say that for at least the last four days I have been, and I am hoping that the scale will give me just a little loss for my efforts. I am vowing to make this week a positive one in the world of diet and exercise. I could really REALLY use the boost.

I have PT today and my knee has been killing me since the last session. Hard to think that this is really helping... I have 2 more sessions and then we reassess... I am still making it to the gym 3x week, but have only lifted. I need to add the cardio. Spinning was BOOKED SOLID so I guess I am stuck with the elliptical until next week. I suppose I could pull the bike out of the shed.... Oh yeah, I DO have a bike...

Our car has been "Totaled" and now we have to fight for a decent settlement and find a new car in the five days we have left on the rental car. I can't tell you how much I HATE dealing with anything car/bureaucracy related. It has caused me much stress. I can't wait for things to get back to normal?

Monday, September 11, 2006

Am I there yet?

Lots of stress these last few weeks and 3 lbs up is the price I pay. I am back at WW and I am staying! I think the biggest thing right now is that if I don't go, I will gain.... I can not gain.

I am just back from a weekend away, and hopefully my diet will be back as well. I don't know what possessed me to think that I could eat Mint Milanos and fried clams?! French fries, Poppers... It seemed that what ever was forbidden over the last year became legal for 2 days. The thing is - it all tasted the same as it did in the past. What I felt last night was that it really wasn't worth it... I hope I can remember this then next time I feel a binge coming on.

Our beater commuter got smashed up last week by a drunk driver. It was parked on the side of the street. My DH wasn't in it, but a poor pedestrian was hit. We didn't have collision so we're at the mercy of the drunk's insurance and I hate dealing with all the bureaucracy. At least the weather has held and DH can ride his motorcycle. I don't know how long it's going to take to get fixed or if it can even be fixed. We'll find out later this morning. I really hope we don't have to buy a car. WE ARE SO BROKE!

I am in the middle of PT for my knee. I don't know if it's getting any better, but I do know that it REALLY HURTS! The massage is killer I have to ice and alieve after every session. (2xweek) We'll reassess after another 2 weeks. I hope there are results after all of this!

At the gym - when I can get there (about 3xwk right now) I am doing a BFL rotation. I need to get back to spinning and that will WILL happen this week - at least once. I am feeling stronger after 3 weeks back at lifting - and hopefully I haven't lost too much in the was of cardio. My sister and I are running a little 5 k in October and I would like to at least finish at a respectable time ---- for me. Lots of work ahead.

SO - I am still here. I am still fat and I am still working on it. Instead of weekends where I give myself license to eat, I am hoping for a few where I'm just not hungry. Committment time is here for the marathon and I am no better off than I was a year ago. Part of me thinks this was a secret plan inside my head to sabatoge my marathon aspirations. I really hope that I can make a better effort at losing and running and stop kidding myself. DO OR DO NOT - There is NO try... Thanks YODA!