Am I there yet?

Lots of stress these last few weeks and 3 lbs up is the price I pay. I am back at WW and I am staying! I think the biggest thing right now is that if I don't go, I will gain.... I can not gain.

I am just back from a weekend away, and hopefully my diet will be back as well. I don't know what possessed me to think that I could eat Mint Milanos and fried clams?! French fries, Poppers... It seemed that what ever was forbidden over the last year became legal for 2 days. The thing is - it all tasted the same as it did in the past. What I felt last night was that it really wasn't worth it... I hope I can remember this then next time I feel a binge coming on.

Our beater commuter got smashed up last week by a drunk driver. It was parked on the side of the street. My DH wasn't in it, but a poor pedestrian was hit. We didn't have collision so we're at the mercy of the drunk's insurance and I hate dealing with all the bureaucracy. At least the weather has held and DH can ride his motorcycle. I don't know how long it's going to take to get fixed or if it can even be fixed. We'll find out later this morning. I really hope we don't have to buy a car. WE ARE SO BROKE!

I am in the middle of PT for my knee. I don't know if it's getting any better, but I do know that it REALLY HURTS! The massage is killer I have to ice and alieve after every session. (2xweek) We'll reassess after another 2 weeks. I hope there are results after all of this!

At the gym - when I can get there (about 3xwk right now) I am doing a BFL rotation. I need to get back to spinning and that will WILL happen this week - at least once. I am feeling stronger after 3 weeks back at lifting - and hopefully I haven't lost too much in the was of cardio. My sister and I are running a little 5 k in October and I would like to at least finish at a respectable time ---- for me. Lots of work ahead.

SO - I am still here. I am still fat and I am still working on it. Instead of weekends where I give myself license to eat, I am hoping for a few where I'm just not hungry. Committment time is here for the marathon and I am no better off than I was a year ago. Part of me thinks this was a secret plan inside my head to sabatoge my marathon aspirations. I really hope that I can make a better effort at losing and running and stop kidding myself. DO OR DO NOT - There is NO try... Thanks YODA!