The last day of summer

We bought all the school supplies - about 33 dollars worth. I bought only what was on the list and nothing - i mean it - nothing more. It included: 2 folders, spiral notebook, binder, colored pencils, dry erase markers, regular markers, pencil case, glue sticks, tissues, ... yeah, that's it. Quite a bit for a first grader. So much for all that tax money we pay... I am half joking because I know how much the teachers are putting in from their own pockets... It's a real shame!

We'll be off to the gym for a quick set of intervals and then to the grocery store for SNACKS and lunch making stuff. Unfortunately it is going to be raining AGAIN. Tomorrow I have my first PT session for my knee. It hadn't been bothering me until yesterday --- I had actually thought about cancelling... but now I am so glad I didn't. Now I just hope this treatment will work.

SO - my workout schedule: Mon: lower body weights, 30 min cardio (done), Tues: intervals 30 min, Wed: upper body weights, 30 min cardio, Thurs: Intervals 30 min, Fri: lower body weights, Sat: Cardio (Bike ride with the sisters). SUNDAY off. I am kind of following the BFL program - although I am still doing the WW Flex diet. I will give this the obligatory 90 days and then switch things around. Again, I am focusing solely on WEIGHT LOSS and maintaining or even gaining some muscle. I also ordered the DVD for Chi Running. There aren't any workshops in my area unti the spring, so I need to make up my own for now.

No, I have not passed...

OK, I took a week off and now I feel a whole lot better. My general situation hasn't changed, but my outlook has... PMS still just kicks my butt!

I am looking forward to a real schedule again with the start of school this wednesday. I will finally be able to attend a ww meeting again.... As of last thursday, I was up .8 .... hmm... I am getting a handle on that though, and one on my workouts as well.

I have hit the weights again after about an 8 month hiatus. I was SORE last week - couldn't do the stairs without pain until today. I have my workouts written out and can zip through them within 40 minutes give or take. I've been doing interval training as well, but will add a few spin classes this week. It's all about weight off right now. It's got to speed up a little if I intend to show at TNT this year.... BOSTON awaits!

Stressed

This weekend was a stress fest. My DH has been working non stop since he took the job from hell and there doesn't seem to be light at the end of the tunnel. I know I have told him silently to suck it up and now, I guess it's my turn. I love my children, but BUT I have been a job widow for 5 months. We're TRYING not to spend money, so I haven't gotten a babysitter all summer. Sunday, DH was taking the kids to the movies so that I could finally have a break --- 4 whole hours to myself to do with whatever I wanted.... AND THEN THE PHONE RANG and within minutes DH was gone and so was my day. I cried.... alot. I didn't think I had it in me, but I guess I was doing a good job of holding it in. STRESS.... I took a long shower with the kids in front of the TV (who were also seriously bummed that Dad couldnt spend time with them). We went for a bike ride, made pickles, took the dog for a walk and stopped for icecream at the DQ. It didn't seem to be enough for the kids so they were bears for most of the day. I am sure they were feeding off my emotion and/or lack of enthusiasm. I was so happy to have them in bed. I ate pie.... 2 pieces of pie and a cold glass of milk. I thought about how this wasn't a good way to deal with the feelings... and then I gave myself the finger and finished what was on my plate.

It's HARD work...

There are days when I wish I could have an icecream sundae. I know what you're thinking: "On WW you can have your Sundae... you can have anything, as long as you are within your points..." I am sorry, but I can't. I never have that many points left over... I am baffled when I hear people at meetings telling the leader that they always have points left over!? How?! Are you nuts!?!

I LOVE eating. HOWEVER, I know what it feels like to be hungry. I certainly have my moments of stress/boredom/crazy PMS eating; but I have to tell you that I feel hunger every day that I keep within my points.... When I eat within my points, I go to bed hungry and wake up famished. The thing is that I think this is how it is going to have to be until the day I die... Hunger if I want to be a "healthy weight". It's hard work being hungry.

WW Update : down .2 ... another loss (albeit tiny). I'll take it!

Marooned ...

I am stuck at home for the day. The van is in the garage and DH took the car since it was raining and he didn't want to get wet on the motorcycle. My kids are a little off the wall so I'll need to be creative and keep them busy. I hope I have it in me. This could be a LONG DAY.

I am exploring the concept of CHI running again. Some TNT'ers took a seminar last fall and said that it made a difference in their training. There aren't any seminars scheduled, so I sent an e-mail to one of the trainers listed to see what he charges. I am open to anything that promises I will enjoy running.

Diet not too bad yesterday. I was mindful, wrote most of it down... except for the bite of brownie...ooo those brownies...

I also sampled my first ever batch of blueberry jam. It came out very well I must say and it felt very DOMESTIC to actually use my new canner...

Yes, almost a NEW number...

Well, I was down .8 this week and yes, I did see a new number for this go-round at ww. I am still plugging away, thinking alot about what goes in my mouth, even with a few set backs this weekend.

They were: 1 cup of garlic smashed potatoes - which I am sure were laden with sourcream and butter, accompanied by 2 glasses of merlot... a small brownie - which I sure was 500 calories... and the final blow 2 cosmos and a rich italian meal - bread (2 pieces with flavored oil), fried calamari (they do it so well), pasta laden with EVOO, and of course, TIRAMISU - my all time favorite desert.

Was it worth it? I don't know. What I do know is that it is done. I enjoyed my date - DH and I haven't been out alone in EONS and I am back on the wagon. This morning - coffee, half a banana and Special K with lowfat milk. YUM. I walked the dog 2.5 miles this morning and will hopefully get out to ride bikes with the kids this afternoon. I am NOT going to slip this time. I have a MARATHON GOAL for November and I plan to be there no matter what!