Here it is the day before Thanksgiving. I am actually posting a loss of one pound and boy, am I happy. It was by far the most stressfull weekend of the fall. The quick and dirty is: written final and water test for lifeguarding,all-day skating competition for DD1, DH called into work, DD2 fell ill with fever half way through the day... I won't bore you with all the details, JUST Thank GOD for Moms! My mom helped all day and then babysat so DH and I could go to a wedding cocktail party Saturday night. I was pooped, but put on a party face for my dear friends... I was SO great with the food until the host brought out spiced cashews - rosemary, cayene pepper, and warm.... YUM!
Other than the NUTS, eating has been decent and I am journaling faithfully (at least 5 of 7 days in SPARKPEOPLE). I made it to SPIN Monday and yesterday I ran (RAN THE WHOLE WAY) 3.2 miles at a fairly decent pace AND I felt really good!! I am getting ready to sign up for next years' races. I am planning on 3 sprint triathlons; 2 are ocean swims(my first). I am looking for a wetsuit. They are unisex. A large goes to a weight of 190... I am 198,5 right now. Do I order it??? Can't decide right now. What I know is that I need to commit to(read PAY FOR)races NOW. It will get me in a RIGHT frame of mind. It seems that once I pay, I race no matter what. I want 2008 to be the year that I race at a NORMAL (not OBESE) weight.
I've written about this before, but it bears repeating. I am SICK SICK SICK of people saying "GOOD FOR YOU" when I tell them that I am a Lifeguard now, or that I am training for a triathlon or a marathon or whatever... There is always that look of disbelief...doubt... I am not exactly sure, but the response is always GOOD FOR YOU... The tone says --- "Good for you fat girl that you are out there even though you are fat and no one would ever consider you a serious athlete or anything..."I guess I am sensitive, but for those of you who ever did anything considered out of the comfort zone of your typical fat person, you know what I am talking about... I guess I am just overly sensitive. I want to reach a point in my life where I am just accepted. NORMAL.
2 comments:
Wow, you're amazing!!! Regardless of your weight, I think it's super impressive what you've accomplished! And I say go for it ALL!! Commit to the wetsuit, the races, everything! You haven't come this far for nothing! You can do it! I never say this (because of the overly high cheese-factor), but YOU GO, GIRL!!!!!
Regardless of how the speaker means it, you should always take "good for you" as a compliment. Most people are too intimidated to try new things, or to challenge themselves, for many reasons. The fact that you are putting yourself out there, striving to excel, is worthy enough.
Good for you!
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