I think I need a tune up.

I have been eating - not poorly, but not writing things down. It bugs me, because I think that I am doing well and then I start to calculate calories in my head only to discover that I am WAY OVER my daily limits. I need to weigh in, but I am afraid that my lack of focus will have caused me to gain weight. Yes, I know that I weigh what I weigh regardless of whether I actually step on a scale and read the number. However, I seem to believe that if I don't see the number, it is not real. I take an opportunity to set things right (by eating less) and then check to see if it's worked in a few days. Yes, I know that's what I did last week and it just may be what happens with this week's weigh in as well. This worries me because it is a slippery slope to regaining the 14 pounds I've worked SO hard to lose since November. That number sounds SO unbelievably pathetic. I feel like it should be more like 20 or 30 pounds after all this effort.

I need to get back on my eating plan. I need a TUNE UP. Journal faithfully and track my calories; a 1500 limit. I need a trip to the scale at least once a week (though honestly I know I do better when I get on a daily weigh in schedule).

I also want to up the intensity of my training. Today I ran 3+ miles. I did it at an excrutiatingly slow pace; like barely a jog. How will this help me run faster? It won't. Intensity, intervals that will help. I actually have to get my heart rate up. I need to ride my bike hard, not just hold a 2 hour conversation with my neighbor. My next race is June 28th. It is an ocean swim; I will christen my wetsuit. Both of my sisters will be doing it with me; and although I did beat my little sister this weekend, it was by just a few seconds - YES SECONDS and she just had a baby 6 months ago. What the heck is my problem? Well, incredibly SLOW transitions is high on the list, but I could also do better over all if I dropped a few more pounds, increased my intensity and tried just a little bit harder. I need to leave my comfort zone.

We'll see how it goes.