Not a complete wash...

The kids started school Wednesday, but my 5 year old had a staggered start (half of the class Wednesday, the other half today) so she was off and we went to the park for an all day play date and I got nothing done. I got nothing done yesterday either since one of the neighborhood moms had "happy hour" (breakfast which included bloody marys) to celebrate our new freedom. It was very fun. Oh, and by the way, half-day kindergarden is really just 2.5 hours.... it goes by in a minute. I am officially starting my new school life after Labor Day when I will have a chunk of several free mornings to get myself in order. I WILL exercise. I WILL clean my house. I will shop and make dinners ahead of time. I WILL stop eatting junk.

Tomorrow morning I am riding my bike with my neighbor. She is in great shape since she didn't take the summer off like I did, so I am sure to get my butt kicked. Boy, do I need it. I will be headed back to the Y next week to work out and teach again (just Thursday and Friday) though I'll add one more day to take a class or do free weights. I am feeling so pathetically weak and flabby.

Saturday, I plan to ride and run with my sister again - and no, I haven't decided to do the triathlon yet though I really feel like I should.... What to do...

Two more days...

I am starting to get a little anxious about my daughter going to kindergarden. She is my baby and I will miss her. We went to SixFlags yesterday for a first/last hurrah at the water park. I actually don't care for amusement parks, but a good friend works in the industry and gives us passes every year and we feel compelled to use them. The kids expect it now, so we go. The park was crowded as usual, but once my youngest realized she had grown over the last year, she was fine splashing into the pool, knowing she could now touch bottom - or swim, which she's learned to do pretty well over the last couple of months.

We shared Cheez-fries and pizza and went to dinner and shared an appetizer platter of fried chicken wings, french fries, onion rings, chicken fingers and blue cheese or ranch to dip it in. We topped it off with small cups of ice cream from Stone Cold Creamery. I felt sick all the way home; mad at myself for letting it be OK one more day to stuff my body full of crap. The grease gave me heartburn. I told my self to ENJOY that feeling; remember it the next time someone offers you a greasy onion ring...

I am done now; starting over. New school year, new schedule, new habits, new ME? I've got some challenges ahead with my eldest, but a healthy attitude can do wonders... right?

SHOULD I?

I worked out with my sister yesterday as planned - though a few modifications due to FOG and timing, and bodily issues... The ride was 15 miles instead of twenty b/c we had to leave later due to the fog - we couldn't see and I had to be back home in time to get my little one to a birthday party. We ran about 2 miles, but were forced to cut it short for bathroom purposes. In all, it was successful b/c I did something. Hopefully it will be the start back into purposeful exercise.

I came home, went to the birthday party and mowed the lawn. In the afternoon, we had a car wash to keep the kids busy and then I took them to the lake with my neighbor for one last hurrah. I picked up pizza for dinner and I ate too much. I have no idea why - I was not stressed, my daughter was having a good day, I honestly don't know what possessed me, other than it tasted really good. Today we are going to the water park and I am sure to eat some junk (because choices are few) but this has to be it. I am done with eating crap. I need to get a handle on my diet again; write things down, plan meals. I keep holding out for school starting - like it's the magic bullet for getting my act together.

My sister wants me to sign up for the Title Nine triathlon September 7. I know she doesn't want to go it alone. Part of me says, JUST DO IT; while the other part of me knows how hilly the course is and how cold the water gets in September and says "You enjoy, I'll cheer". I told her I was still undecided -- it's all women; I don't have anything to prove. I have not trained and this is clear. I would be relying solely on "muscle memory" to get me through.... What to do, what to do....

Picking up where I left off...

I've made a committment to working out Saturday with my sister. We have a 20 mile bike ride scheduled and 1/4 mile repeats for 3 miles afterwards. We'll see if we can muster it all considering neither of us has been consistently working out. I am using Saturday as my official return to a regular workout schedule. The kids go back to school next week, I start work again and my daughter is doing much better, thank you.

I am feeling 80% on, as far as diet is concerned. I think I am up, but not too far gone that I can't make good use of the losses I had from stress and build on them. I want to be in the 170's before September ends. It's time to take care of ME (mind body soul).

Dog Days...

I have a workout scheduled for Saturday morning at my sister's house. She's got a triathlon in a few weeks (the one I am still on the fence about). At least I will get out of the house and DO something for my health. This weekend I painted ALOT. I gave my girls their own rooms and painted them/redecorated. THANK GOD my sisters and mom helped or else I would still be at it. Note to self PRIME first - I could not cover the blue trim to save my life - 4 coats and I can still see it! As my sister said - they are 5 and 8; not so critical - and no, they had nothing but great things to say - they were excited!

9 more days til school starts. I can't believe how fast the summer has flown. We still have so much to do, so much we wanted to do and with my daughter's illness and my general malaise much has been thrown by the wayside. That is life.

I am keeping my eating in check about 80% right now. I need to STEP it up a notch, exercise and get back into a routine. I also need to address the tendonitis in my arm once and for all. Accupuncture worked, I just need to finish the course of treatment. SOON there will be time for me! I have faith!!

I could really use a KICK

SO, I trained with my sister this past weekend and realized just how much fitness can be lost by taking a month or so off... I need to NOT wait until I am starting all over again. I need to run or something. The urge is there, now I need a little NIKE spirit to just DO IT!

My lowest weight was 180.5 . I haven't been on the scale, but I know that I've been eating again and I know that I haven't been keeping track. My weight is up a tad and I need to reign that in. A lot of stress is great for weight loss - less is NOT; I eat mindlessly and tend to keep to myself... Not good things - I need to break out of this depression and take care of myself. I want September so my kids will be in school, but in the meantime, I need to use what time I have constructively - log my food, watch what I eat and MOVE!

SEPTEMBER can't come fast enough!

So life is crazy - more than you know. I am biding my time until we get to see the doctor 8/19, and finishing up the summer commitments (last of the summer skate, last of the dance classes, one more camp week). It's about this time of year when I start craving September. I need a routine. I need predictable ME time. My house is a disaster; my van is FULL of sand from the beach. I haven't been to the gym. I need a regular workout schedule. 24 more days!!

AND I need to set some goals for myself. I am doing a mock triathlon this weekend with my sister to try out the Title Nine course for the fall. I haven't signed up for the race... yet? I still don't know if I want to commit or not, given my current rotten family conditions. In any case, I VOW to run one other day this week (in combo with my weekend workout). It is possible. Let's see if I can follow through!

It's been a tough week

And yes, I do still need to work out. My daughter has had a bad week and it's affected me deeply. I know I need to take care of myself -- it really is on my radar, but I can't seem to move beyond the present. I am wallowing.