I have officially completed my 12th day of Marathon training. I am following my schedule religiously, and for the most part I feel good. Of course we're only running 3-4 miles right now. By the new year I'll be running 9. I am still in disbelief... me - me running 26.2 miles!
I went to a party last Saturday night. I saw a girl there that I haven't seen since high school. I am a good 40lbs heavier. Ugh. My good friend Chris let it slip to her that I was training for Boston. It was interesting to see her reaction (I saw all this going on and pretended not to hear). Out of the corner of my eye I saw her staring at my body as she continued her conversation... She said nothing to me about the marathon... Weird I thought, and then I couldn't let it go... I kept thinking things like... "She thinks I am fat, she thinks I can't do it... " Gosh, I am so insecure... Do I really care? I guess I wanted her comments to fuel my motivation to diet... Oh yeah, just wait til you see me on April 17th!
I have been 100% on training and about 75% on diet. I am eating the right things, just not watching the portions as well as I should. I didn't have my usual night time snack last night and it made me feel like I climbed my mental mountain for the week. This is my habit to break... My official ww weigh in is tomorrow. So far, my scale shows a loss of ZERO. I know I am pms-ing, but for the scale not to move at least a smidge is frustrating... I am hoping something happens overnight to give me some sort of boost. I will perservere. I know how much better I will be when I am 20-30lbs smaller...
I lose weight so slowly, regardless of how much I exercise... I feel like Andrea from the Biggest Loser, although it's been a while since I ate 9 brownies....
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