Committed.

My grandmother's wake was Friday night, the funeral was yesterday. It was a lot of family time and a LOT of food. EVERYWHERE food and wine and I kept talking to myself, choose wisely, that has too much mayo, those chips aren't worthy of your calories, and then I had some wine and started leaving the pavement... Luckily I had enough sense to stop the car. I went home --- My calorie limit is 1800. My total for Friday 2300 and yesterday was 2350. I saw people I don't normally get to visit with - cousins, second cousins, aunts and uncles from far away. We shared a lot of fun Gram stories and truly celebrated the life of a great lady.

My diet and exercise will get back on track. In fact, I re-committed myself last night with green tea, and my book (vs TV and snacks). This morning I mapped out some running routes on MAPMYWALK and will choose one of them to do today. That is my goal. The upcoming week is going to be a tough one. I have to watch my neighbors 2 yr old tomorrow morning, so SPIN class is out. My little one has a day off from pre-school so no long run Tuesday (unless I can arrange with my neighbor). Tuesday night is a surprise party for my brother in law, so MORE FOOD to battle. Skating day Wednesday and Thursday and Friday are my work days, but I WILL get in good workouts before I start. At least my Saturday workout with my sisters should be back on track this week (barring any more snow storms or tragic events).

I want this time to be the time it all clicks. I want to really move into the 180s this week, which will be tough to do given my weekend. BUT regardless of what the scale says, I am NOT giving up. I am just going to try a little harder. I am SO SICK OF BEING FAT!