Happy Easter!

Normally one of my favorite holidays, but this year it comes too early. It's freezing. I haven't even thought about spring clothes, and there isn't a daffodil or crocus in site. How can it be Easter? My step-mother is buying us all brunch at one of my Dad's favorite restaurants. It will be a day full of memories. Hopefully after 16 months it won't be a tearful day. Of course it is a buffet- the dieter's nightmare; and it is full of "once a year" kind of foods... I've had a horrible two days of eating.

Friday night was FUN. I love my friends and their husbands. I wish we went out more than once or twice a year. I had a few glasses of wine. I ate off the appetizer platter - fried calamari, stuffed mushroom, brushcetta, a piece of bread with olive oil. The portions were obscene, but I was thoughtful about how much I put in my mouth. I wasn't full when we left. We rushed to make it to the show - and then we went back for dessert. Of course they were huge - I order tiramisu, my favorite and drank decaf. I ate half of it, though I could have easily polished it off.

Yesterday I was exhausted. I got up way too early after not getting to bed til 1 or so. I craved something salty so before we picked up the kids, we stopped for breakfast. I got a breakfast sandwich with potato homefries. I ate half - I thought about the fact that I felt satisfied and then I ate the rest. Boy - it obviously bothers me even this morning. How could I conciously think about actually being full and then eat more? It doesn't happen very often. I really hate that I had to finish it. I wish I had left it. Now that would have been empowering. Instead, I went home and had a WW meal for lunch (ok) and CHIPS with QuesO! How can my DH buy that crap when he says he wants to lose weight? Rather than dinner, I opted for slimfast and bed. Another bad day.

So here it is Easter. I have resolved myself to the fact that buffets are hard; that there is a lot of mindless eating that can go on, so I need a plan. One trip for food - things I don't get to eat but once a year, in moderation. One trip for fruit only. DONE. I have signed up for Monday a.m. SPIN. I can't wait to be back to NORMAL.