Wishing the leaves would Rake themselves...

I love fall, but HATE raking leaves. We live in a tight neighborhood; we have a small yard and 6 massive maple trees that dump their leaves every year expecting me to pick them up. We have to bag them and take them to the dump or we can throw them over my neighbors fence or we can have the giant leaf sucking machine come and take them for a few hundred dollars. I don't have the money, so my options are limited. It is also suppose to rain the rest of the week and into the weekend. My DH is not a good helper. I am going to have to look at these leaves for the next few weeks and it makes me ANXIOUS.

My house is a disaster. My kids were off yesterday and I worked for a friend at the Y Monday, so I still have weekend crap, in addition to day off crap. Depressing; and I am procrastinating by writing this post. There is a WW meeting Thursday at the local senior center. I've been there before. The leader LOVES herself too much to be motivating. I don't want to clap for your 80 lbs every week. I don't want you telling me that I probably exercise too much, I am not eating enough or drinking my water. I know if I follow the diet I will see a loss; I know if I don't I will gain. It's not rocket science. Honestly, when people gain weight they know why... You can't be 100% on and see a gain --- or at least not as often as it seems to happen. I know the science of plateaus, but I also know that people get lazy. They start to "eyeball" their food instead of measuring a portion, they graze and forget... You know what I mean...

So - Will I go Thursday? (I guess that's tomorrow...) I'll see if I am feeling it... If I do, it will be with strong conviction and desire to SUCCEED. I am sick of doing things HALF-ASSED.... and I am really sick of being fat for the last 13 years... I am so much more than a big pair of jeans!