Tuesday, October 04, 2016

The Last Cake

My teen's birthday is today and so, as is tradition, we had cupcakes for breakfast... I chose a carrot cake that was delicious but it's now sitting in the pit of my stomach like a lead brick... ugh. I ate horribly yesterday and all through last weekend. I feel GIGANTIC. I can not eat sugar!  I crave it, I'm addicted to it and I have got to get off it.

My teen remarked that she's put on weight and can't even think about clothes...I want to not be fat, but I just can't control myself!  What can I say to that? It's exactly how I feel right now too. AND I CAN DO BETTER.

At some point I have to be able to make that turn. At some point it has to be THE LAST CAKE. I have more birthdays coming up - all my friends are turning the big 50... There will be cake at all of them and will I choose to eat it?!  What do I really want?

I want today to be my last piece of cake. I want to be in control of my life again.

3 comments:

fitteratfortyish said...

Making that clean break can be so, so hard. The feelings you'll feel NOW are so much more compelling than the crappy feelings we undoubtedly have AFTER.

I support you!

Lynne said...

Thanks Wendy!

fitteratfortyish said...

Reading this has stuck with me. This can be a powerful moment for both you and your daughter, and not only that, can give her a life skill that you (and I, too) are struggling with at a later age. She could be empowered much more for her whole life, starting now. And so can you! I hope you are able to capitalize on this moment. Wanting the change is an important ingredient! I'm cheering for you both.