My teen's birthday is today and so, as is tradition, we had cupcakes for breakfast... I chose a carrot cake that was delicious but it's now sitting in the pit of my stomach like a lead brick... ugh. I ate horribly yesterday and all through last weekend. I feel GIGANTIC. I can not eat sugar! I crave it, I'm addicted to it and I have got to get off it.
My teen remarked that she's put on weight and can't even think about clothes...I want to not be fat, but I just can't control myself! What can I say to that? It's exactly how I feel right now too. AND I CAN DO BETTER.
At some point I have to be able to make that turn. At some point it has to be THE LAST CAKE. I have more birthdays coming up - all my friends are turning the big 50... There will be cake at all of them and will I choose to eat it?! What do I really want?
I want today to be my last piece of cake. I want to be in control of my life again.