Working it through...

I actually went swimming in the lake yesterday, and aside from one pesky fish the experience wasn't that bad. I didn't do any laps per se, just swimming with the kids, but it's a big step for one that can PANIC with the first sight of weeds. Now if I can just put my goggles on and swim while the kids are in lessons - I just might become aclimatized by race day.

I forgot my bike shoes and had to spin in sneakers. Can I just say my feet are killing me!? I noticed this morning while walking the dog. I don't know how I could have ever spun or biked with out shoes???!

WW tomorrow. A preview has revealled O weight loss for the week after a gain last week. :(). I am trying to eat well. I am trying to eat appropriate portions. I am trying to figure out why I need to eat at all some days. I've been thinking about hypnosis. Has anyone ever tried it? My mom used it to quit smoking 20 years ago and it worked for her... I am game for anything at this point. Frustration is where I am at right now. I realize this whole weight loss thing is a journey. It's not going to come off overnight and once it's off I have to spend the rest of my life making sure that it doesn't creep back.

I have been entertaining the idea of a weight loss challenge of sorts - I am seriously BUMMED about not finishing the Boston Marathon before the six hour deadline. I haven't written about it here, but I think about it constantly. The main reason, which may not be a great reason is that people I know casually have never said a word to me about it. I KNOW that they checked the BAA website. I know that my name is not there. I know they assume that I was a) lying about running; or b) started, but couldn't finish. I KNOW it shouldn't matter, but IT MATTERS. So - What I am thinking is this - I LOSE 25 lbs and I get to have another shot. That means I have until November. Of course I could just train at whatever weight I am, but I really don't think I have it in me. The extra weight on my not so perfect knee is a recipe for a more severe injury. And the idea of committing the time only to FAIL again is just not an option I want to consider.

SO I need to get to work - SERIOUS work. Stop doing what I am doing and make some real changes. HOW ? WW meals for a week supplement with nonfat salads and fruit. Perhaps limiting my choices and monitoring my portions will set me up for renewed success.