Friday, July 15, 2016

Do you ever get over high school insecurities?

It's the year of 50 and that means parties... I was invited to one this weekend for two women from high school. Both were cheerleaders; one was the most popular girl in school and I was ALWAYS intimidated by her. She lived in the rich section of town, was beautiful, took ski vacations and always had the best clothes. She was never mean to me, but I honestly don't think we've ever had a conversation. I reconnected with the other girl when I taught her triplets to swim years ago as an instructor at the YMCA. She has a different life and we haven't really seen each other lately. The party is at her house on a lake... bring you bathing suit...

And I am seriously fretting about this... and mulling it over... and wondering who will be there besides my two good friends and their spouses. I tend to feel lost... I don't know why I feel such stress over an RSVP - Go or don't go and stop letting it occupy your mind... Right? Easier said. There's the "what do I bring?" "Am I really going to put on a bathing suit?" "I feel FAT and FRUMPY. Meh. I'm pretty sure they haven't given a thought about me. I'm pretty sure they're thinking about the caterer and where to park cars, and what time to start decorating...

I am a grown woman; with an education; a great heart; a family of blessings and a decent life.

More fodder for the therapist...




2 comments:

fitteratfortyish said...

All these feelings are understandable. My question is: Do you WANT to go?

And then, is the honest answer to that good enough?

Lynne said...

Nope. :)