Monday, January 09, 2017

MONDAY AGAIN...

I need to do some prepping for the rest of the week. I did nothing productive over the weekend other than going to the gym yesterday for a 3 mile jaunt...

I will fast tomorrow, for the third week in a row... It's my little experiment...  So far so good.

Can I finally break into the 180s? I hope so... I know it's just a number, but it will validate the process for me. Even though I'm not perfect (and who is?!) the changes and work I'm putting in is making a difference for the better. I NEED THIS.

Someone took my picture Saturday night and I looked HORRIBLE...I know negative self-talk is not helpful, but honestly there's nothing I can say except this will make a lovely "BEFORE" pic...  I had my gray hair pulled into a pony tail; accenting the weight I carry in my face, a bra that needs to be thrown out and a turtleneck sweater that was too tight (I originally had another sweater over it, but it was so hot; there were no mirrors; so I had taken it off... ).

Seeing it was shocking and sad and just made me more resolved to get a grip and lose the weight. AGAIN. I know I am more than my " package ".  I want the outside to reflect the inside... This time I will work harder to maintain. I don't want to go through this again.

2 comments:

fitteratfortyish said...

OK, I hope you at least threw that bra out! If not please toss it. You do not need that kind of negativity in your life!

And, I'm sure the pic was just a bad angle, and almost NO ONE looks good in a pony tail. That's my personal opinion anyway, of many many years.

Weren't you saying recently you wanted to dress better, do makeup more, etc? This pic will be great motivation for that.

Truly, I'm sure it was a bad angle. We all take better and worse pics. Maybe taking a pretty selfie today would help take the sting out of a bad picture, that's all it was, and we ALL have them! Even the Beautiful People LOL. Feel better.

Lynne said...

Thank you for calling me out... I'll get it together... I don't know why I'm playing the "I can't spend money on my hair, or clothes or ??? until I lose X lbs..." It's a dumb game... I'm making an appointment today!! And it is what it is for now...