Weigh in Wednesday

Making no headway this week. BBQ's and race day f-its, lead me no reason to believe that I would see a number to my liking.

I'm trying to figure out why I can be so gun-ho one day and then just blow it the next. What the heck is wrong with me?

I am really happy with my run time, really happy that I did the race and really unhappy that the picture you see doesn't reflect how I felt on the inside. I feel like I'm trapped in this shell. I want to be better.