I AM NOT OBESE. I AM NOT OVERWEIGHT. I AM on the high side of NORMAL!
This is big. This has not been the case for more than 20 years....
I have an appointment next Monday with the sports medicine doctor to look at my trick hip, and other than that I am 100% ! I feel so proud.
This past weekend we went to a local fair for a 4-H goat show. Fried everything - potatoes, twinkies, dough, meat, with all sorts of toppings..... apple crisp (my favorite), cider donuts.....and I had none of it. The thing is - I didn't feel deprived, I felt EMPOWERED. I really am in control of my health for the first time in a very LONG time. It's just awesome!
I want to ride this feeling for as long as possible.
SO - Gym today and spin tomorrow. I still feel some stress with school schedules and kid angst, but I will work with it and do my best to come up with a plan for the fall that we can thrive on. I want to get strong muscles/definition. I thought about Cross Fit, but it ain't cheap so I may consider a trainer once a month to keep me on track, design routines, help me set goals.
AND I am really thinking about my fall wardrobe. I bought a couple of dresses - size 8, new jeans - size 8 and a pretty skirt, but need much more. It's actually fun to try things on, though still a little unnerving... I keep thinking THAT WILL NEVER FIT ME! or that pants will be tight and when they fit I am still in disbelief...
I am taking a break from therapy for a while, it was feeling a little claustrophobic, but I'll continue to work these feelings through... I have a good set of tools and a definite sense that I deserve to look good and it really is true: I AM NOT FAT.