And so it begins… The week before vacation and its jammed-packed
with regular weekly activities topped with “going
on vacation” stress and chores (packing, house prep, dog…). I know I am a grumpy,
overly sensitive mom & wife so it will be a challenge to keep in check. I’m
trying my best to be mindful.
I am a determined woman
with my FITBIT, keeping the 10,000
steps/day streak alive, no matter
what! I went out last night in a
windstorm for a 2-mile jaunt; grumpy husband in tow… He complained about how
much he ate and how he couldn't go fast. I thought my pace was normal and I was
NOT accommodating - He needs a severe kick in the ASS! I am glad that he went; I
hope he chooses to go more often. I bought him his own FITBIT for Christmas,
and I've bugged him a lot about when he’ll actually use it; or if he’d rather me
return it… He keeps saying “tomorrow” and I’ll continue to ask about it. I
personally think it’s very helpful and motivating. I know I've been much more
active and is definitely helping with MAINTENANCE.
Whatever it takes to keep me motivated and thinking… Maintenance is work. It just won’t happen. I
have watched myself and others become complacent, forgiving, apathetic…
Fat is
sneaky.
It starts with entitlement – “I am
thin, I can eat what I want.” Or a bad day, or “there’s nothing to eat but these Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups!” It progresses to “I’ll get back on track Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday….. Monday” And
then you need a new outfit and you hate your clothes (because they are tight…).
And then that MUFFIN just won’t work in those jeans and you stop wearing them;
and then you can’t wear them…
I was fat because I ate what I wanted when I wanted it. I
was unsuccessful losing weight for a long time because I had fewer “on-program”
days than “off-program” days. Looking back, I was REALLY good at excuses and
good reasons. I worked out and that made
me hungry. I worked out and therefore I should be thinner. I was burning SO
many calories… Really? I would round off calories and points in my favor, I
played all sorts of tricks and now I don’t. Instead I focus on what I eat –
real food not fake food, organic when possible. I *try* to eat when I am
hungry. I stay away from foods that I don’t LOVE or that I don’t need
(bread/pasta… gluten free for the most part). It’s what works for me now, and I’ll
always continue to check in. I will NOT buy new pants!
And here I am all smug in my new khakis. After a few hours
it is clear I should have bought the smaller size. I have MONTH ONE of
maintenance in the books, and I am still at it...
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