The Binge

Yesterday after I left the hospital I hit Trader Joe's for a few groceries to end the week. Toasted coconut and macaroons found their way into my cart. I LOVE COCONUT! I ate the whole bag on the way home and then 2 macaroons with a glass of almond milk. Then I had 2 more macaroons with 4  "mini" corn muffins that my kids won't eat b/c they don't have sugar (the muffins, not the kids). I washed it all down with more almond milk. DUMB. STRESS EATING. I know exactly what it is and almost predict what I will do... Why don't I stop before it's too late? Why do I make it worse? I shuttled kids to their respective activities and because it was raining and I needed FITBIT steps I went to Target for paper towels and walking... I hit my step goal and then bought a 3 oz bag of cashews. I ate them all on the way home (NUTS!! MY NEMESIS!!). I made chicken salad for the kids dinner and ate my share. I had one more macaroon because I needed something sweet to end the night. DUMB. I was SO mad at myself and really upset that I had decent eating days this week and in one fell swoop the potential for weight loss was gone.

I am going to the gym right after work today. It's raining so I will run/walk the treadmill until I exceed my goal for the day. I really want to have a good weekend. My mind is not in a great place right now, I'm feeling a little defeated and I could really use a string several weeks of good together... I really need a period of calm and I don't see it on the horizon just yet. At least the snow's melting and in one tiny spot by the chimney, a purple crocus is trying to bloom.