This is where I spent several hours this weekend reading The Patriots. I'm almost done and it's really good if you like historical fiction. I also road city bikes, walked, ran, shopped a little and ate what I wanted - including frozen custard, gelato and desert at every meal. The weather was gorgeous - 80's, sunny, so nice. I actually didn't stress about the kids - they were fine - and the DH was more like his other self, pleasant, sorry for being a jerk, open to changes... We'll see about the follow through, but I'll stay positive for now.
My weight this morning was an acceptable. 189.9. And now that the trip is over I can regroup and start anew. In fact, I'm ready for a real challenge - to buckle down and lose 10 lbs in April. I admit I did little to lose weight in March. I still held on to the mindset that if I hit steps or exercised I could eat. If I logged it, I was OK; and I actually believed what MFP was telling me in their over inflated weight loss estimates --- "If you eat like this every days (typically +/- 1,500 calories day); you'll weigh X lbs in 5 weeks." NO, I won't... oh, I don't.
Maintenance was the only thing I could muster in March, which is fine - BUT / AND I don't like this weight. It really sucks when you feel strong and healthy inside - finishing a bike ride or run - and the pictures of you from that outing don't reflect that feeling at all. I need to match.
I don't want to be down on my self. I want to stay focused. I know what is possible if I set my mind to it. I'll be happy to lose any weight, but a goal will give me purpose - much like the May race will keep me running.
2 comments:
Love the positivity in this post!
Looks lovely and you sound so relaxed. It sounds like that trip was restorative, and needed. Glad you got to take it!
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