Thursday, May 18, 2017
And it is what it is. I own what I ate. I made lots of bad choices and knew I gained, but I avoided the scale and that made it worse. Isn't it always the case?
I just feel so frustrated. I have a good day, then 2 bad ones... I just can't seem to get into the flow - and we all know what that means. It's not that weight loss becomes effortless; there's still planning and there are always challenges, but it's like something clicks and there's a consistency; a smug motivation that invites NOs to ice cream without the slightest hesitation.
And weight loss - consistent weight loss in pounds, not ounces.
I hate that so much of my life has been focused on the fat. It changes so much about how I feel inside and sends the wrong message to the outside world. Regardless of how confident you think you are; all it takes is a "look" and you know you're being judged. Pretend you don't care. You care.